That is how I felt this morning at 3 am. With Mandi and the Hobos sleeping I could only think of silly things and then today I could not say Hamburg for my life. That is what I get for being silly. I am not going to lie and am very happy it is not so cold here in Germany but the rain has seem to follow from Norway. When we left Norway it was cold and rainy then we saw tons of snow, burr. Gladly we changed trains in Oslo and were down to the not so wet weather but still cold. Like a Texas winter high of 50 degrees.The stay in the station was an experience with Mandi asleep with my blanket (that I had wondered about packing but am grateful I did) and the smelly hobos. All I could do was read the book of Luke and think of all the things I am grateful for. Unlike Mandi my younger years are gone and the last decade was very painful but God in His infinite wisdom and power gave me the strenght to sell it all and come to Europe. Don't think I do not have my doubts but like my daddy said' "what are you going to do now why not just keep going." So here we are going and I am being reminded of the love relationship I had with my Savior Jesus and am beginning to miss it (sad to say I did not really miss it before). When you have a good job, money, friends and a dog why do I need to trust in the Lord? I know that is a sad thing but very true at least for me. Here I ask and talk to Jesus by the moment because I realize each moment how much I need Him. He has gotten Mandi and I from place to place, kept us safe, saved spots on the train for us and yes He continues to heal my sick silly body. I need Him here and I needed him there but I did not ask and did not acknowledge my need for Him in each MOMENT. Oh yes, I get anxious and wonder about the next leg of the trip, how fast Mandi is going to walk and especially if my body (that I have not taken care of) will stand up. I am so grateful the word I say cannot explain how I appreciate my family, friends and my dog. I am not sad to be here I am grateful for the opportunity and am praising God for giving me a good friend and navigator. Because if not I would still be in Norway thinking I am in Denmark. Thanks Mandi for keeping me strait on that one. =o) Maybe in a couple days I will be able to say Hamburg with out the "er."
And yes, I still miss American toilet paper.
Oh, I hope you guys are liking the pics (please comment if you like). I swear when I put them in and they are right side up but when I put them in this blog they go crazy. My IT guy lives in Austin (Hi, Tommy and family!) but he would say it is the user not the product.
Lots of love from Germany,
Ana
Ana, it's so nice to hear your perspective this time! You are doing some maturing, it sounds like. Which is something all of us need almost every day! I think what the two of you are doing is awesome, and I would be so afraid to do it. I know a good companion makes a difference, but you hit the nail on the head when you said you can't do it without God accompanying you!!! Good girl! Keep that Mandi on the straight and (not too) narrow. We worry about her too. Hope you get warm. Know that your body will adjust after a while, and you will be so strong. Love you both! Mandi's step-mom :)
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