Interesting how the big guy works sometimes...

Ok, so most of you know that I'm Catholic - and those who don't know - hey, SURPRISE!

Anyway, today I was reading this thing that said Pope Benedict 16th declared the upcoming liturgical year as the year of faith.  It starts on Oct 11.  And then I was struck by the irony.

I've been planning this trip for a long time now, and it's finally happening and part of the point of this trip is to learn to let go and let God - to trust that he'll take care of us and we'll come home safe.  Also to visit the shrines, churches, etc to pray and listen and try to discern the direction that my life is supposed to take, or at least what vocation I'm called to.  Perhaps even some answers about my career (or at least a job that doesn't make me want to gouge out my eyeballs - no offense to my prior co-workers, but I can't say that I didn't contemplate it from time to time).  So while I have been planning on taking a "leap of faith" as it were, it just so happens to correspond to the year that the Pope has set aside as a year for faith.  The big guy knows what he's doing, I'm sure of it - but part of me wants to be let in on it!!!  A control freak is attempting to give up control and try like hell to learn to take the passenger's seat in her own life.  Admit it, you're gonna be interested to read about the train wrecks!  I can't say that I'm looking forward to them, either.

Besides that, I'm also praying for healing, which means learning to forgive not only those who have hurt me, but myself.  And I'm one unforgiving bitch when it's me that I have to forgive.  Sigh - so fair warning, this may get a little religious from time to time - if you can't take it then don't read those posts!

So I guess what I'm saying is that I find the timing ironic, I hope to come back as an even better version of the me that is going, hopefully I'll learn something about how I'm supposed to live and where I go from here. But as for everyone who asks what I'm going to do when I get back, here is your answer... ahem... I'm gonna live in a VAN DOWN BY THE RIVER!